Oh it's been a minute since I've written. I'm failing miserably on my picture a day project. Damn it. I do take pictures everyday, I just forget to send them this way. I will try to be better. (who am I kidding, very few people are reading this...I'm certain no one is sitting around, constantly checking to see if I've put a picture up. I am not disalusioned. LOL!)
On Friday (5/27/10) I drove to Philadelphia for a girls night. My 2 besties from high school, Kelly & Stacy and I all converged in Philly (Kelly lives there) so have girl time and go see Sex and the City 2. This very same weekend 2 years ago we did the very same thing to go see the original.
We had lots of laughs, great food (sushi and hibachi...so good), great cocktails (of course!) and togetherness. We ended our evening-o-fun at a local casino. Kelly's mom who is probably the luckiest person I've ever met, just sits at slot machines and they basically say, here ya go, how 'bout some money? I rubbed her for some good juju, but alas, no cash for me. She did hit some pretty good money, so in her charitible nature, she gave each of us $100! Holy Crap! I decided to pay if forward and on a much smaller scale at each of the toll booths I went through I paid the toll for the next person. It really felt good!
I did learn that Stacy has been seperated for 2 months from her husband and Kelly doesn't seem happy. I feel awful, because these are supposed to be two of my greatest friends and these bad things are going on, and I don't know it. I know that we all have seperate lives, but I love these two, and I want to be part of their life. I have a bunch of friends that I never get to see, who I miss being a part of their life. Is the old adage that people come in and out of your life for a reason really true? Was I once a very large part of people's life for a purpose, and then the lesson is learned so you move on?
That also makes me think about relationships. On the outside, these two seemingly have everything. They own homes, they are married, they are financially secure, etc. My god, it's never ever going to be like a fairytale, is it? The logical and reality part of my brain knows the answer to that, but the creative and loving side of me still wishes to be swept off my feet and have the truest of true love. It really reinforces that you should marry your best friend. Once the passion goes away (that's crap too...I want passion every moment) you need to be left with someone who you truely enjoy their company and have something to talk to them about everyday. I have amazing friends (most of them are gay men) but I don't feel any spark with them. That's the arguement I have in my head all the time. Is a "spark" a real thing, or is it just lust disguised? Would I settle for a person that makes me happy and whom I enjoy life with, but aren't attracted to? Why can't I have both?
Well, none of these questions are going to be solved in one night :) I did enjoy my trip with the girls and I am going to make it a point to stay more connected to them, and be in their life more.
Heather I just realized you have a blog...I am so behind the times! I just started one yesterday. Wow, what a post! I didn't realize the info on Stacy & Kelly either that makes me very sad...
ReplyDeleteI do have to add now that I have been married THREE times that things really don't always go as you want or expect. The first time I thought I found "the one" and he beat the crap out of me for 4 years and I am lucky to have lived. The 2nd time was a HUGE MISTAKE! I married him because he was safe and wanted kids. I lived in MISERY for 8 years but I have 5 AWESOME kids from that mess at least. I SWORE I was never getting married again! And I really did mean it. And then I met Bob...I can honestly say he is BEYOND AMAZING. He is the perfect person for me and we are best friends. I miss him so much whenever we are not together and I NEVER have felt that way before. He is amazing with my kids and has taken them and all their "issues" as his own. We don't fight and we laugh a lot. It really is something I thought only happened in the movies. The funny thing we met through Yahoo personals, and we actually knew a few people the other person knew! Small world! I am pro internet dating as long as you are VERY careful. I just wanted to give you some hope! It is possible to find "the one" I was a non believer! We were not planning on having kids but now that Gabrielle is due tomorrow I guess we know not all things go as planned. My due date is EXACTLY 9 months to the day that we got married! Truely a very unexpected wedding gift! I am so excited now though and still can not believe that we created this baby girl we are inpatiently waiting for! Keep your chin up! Your day will come!