A couple blogs ago I discussed wanting to find my father. I think that was in April. Well I finally sucked it up and on 4/28 I wrote him a short, but concise email. Once I actually sat in front of the computer and told myself that today was the day I was writing him, I just did it. Well this morning at around 7:30am I received a response! Holy Crap Batman! I almost fell out of bed! (just a note: I don't sleep with a computer in my bed...that's just creepy. All of my emails get pushed through to my cell phone). I threw off my sheets, called a friend, and went to my computer. The email was great. He chooses his words carefully like I do, he loves to sing, he plays guitar, the written word and lyrics are extremely important to him. Holy moley, can you be like someone without having ever been around them? I always just assumed environment developed your passions. He stated that while he didn't deserve a relationship, he welcomed the chance to get to know me and possibly develop a relationship. He ended the email very sweetly and said that he'd love to hear about my life and now would have a reason to check his email daily now. It's weird, when I was waiting for my fossil of a computer to boot up, I wasn't nervous or have this weird pit of my stomach ache and teeth chattering thing that I do. It just felt right.
I wrote him back and gave a birdseye view of me. I explained how I also love to sing, and the things I enjoy, a little about my family, and where I currently live.
The rest of my day was sort of magical. Nothing new happened...it was actually quite ordinary, but I felt different. I felt like cosmically this is all going in a direction that it should be. Maybe I am just hoping for that, who knows!
I started Eat Pray Love today. Something pulled me to this book, and already I am in love. Something about today just makes me feel like possibilites are endless...and I haven't felt like that in awhile. I really have had the urge to call
KW to tell her about this, because this is something that I know would've been important for her. I just can't. I can't think about her and I can't allow her to know my life anymore...she lost that privledge when she gave up on me (not as a relationship, but as my friend). Ok, the mood just shifted from whoohoo! to awkward. Sorry.
Anyway...I am seeing a psychic on Saturday and I am quite excited about it. I was referred by someone close to me who had an amazing session with her. Apparently this is a 3-4 hour thing! yikes! Even though I feel like everything is working as it should, I want someone else to say it.
I think I am going to read a couple more chapters. I leave you with this. I came across this statement in chapter 7:
"Om Namah Shivaya"which means
"I honor the divinity that resides within me"
How awesome is that?
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